Marry-Go-Round

Have you ever thought of getting married with someone? No, I am not talking about the common crush your class of 9^th standard had. Or the sweet looking next-door-girl who occasionally comes to you for help. Or the only girl in college who has ever asked you for notes and made a positive remark about your intellect. I am talking about serious stuff.

What is the feeling when somebody finally decides to marry someone? I don’t know. As a matter of fact, sometimes I get really terrified by just thoughts of getting tied with someone for the whole life. No, I am NOT telling any tell-these-marriage-jokes-when-you-can-not-come-up-with-anything-else sort of stories. I am trying to imagine the state of mind one has when he or she becomes sure that “this is the face I want to see every day”. What people see in each other? And what if it wasn’t there at all? What if he or she developed something else after getting married? What if he or she had something else, something which casts shadow on all his / her good things, which you did not notice before? What if you are not up to his / her expectations?

I am a person who is not sure even when he buys a pair of socks. And whenever I buy stuff, my mind is trying to ease itself by reciting thoughts like “this thing is not going to protest, no matter how I treat it” and “I can always buy another pair if I make a mistake in buying this”. But n case of a marriage, none of these can be said. What drives the marrying people forward, when they know there is no turning back?

May be we can drop those who had a love-marriage, as they know each other enough. But what about the majority who is forced to get their marriage arranged by someone else? What if they put it on a secondary place what I value most? What if their definitions of beauty do not match with mine? What if they do not think that I may deserve someone better? And this list can go on and on.

The bottom line is : Getting married, if I get married ever, will be the most courageous thing I have ever done!