Marry-Go-Round

Have you ever thought of getting married with someone? No, I am not talking about the common crush your class of 9^th standard had. Or the sweet looking next-door-girl who occasionally comes to you for help. Or the only girl in college who has ever asked you for notes and made a positive remark about your intellect. I am talking about serious stuff.

What is the feeling when somebody finally decides to marry someone? I don’t know. As a matter of fact, sometimes I get really terrified by just thoughts of getting tied with someone for the whole life. No, I am NOT telling any tell-these-marriage-jokes-when-you-can-not-come-up-with-anything-else sort of stories. I am trying to imagine the state of mind one has when he or she becomes sure that “this is the face I want to see every day”. What people see in each other? And what if it wasn’t there at all? What if he or she developed something else after getting married? What if he or she had something else, something which casts shadow on all his / her good things, which you did not notice before? What if you are not up to his / her expectations?

I am a person who is not sure even when he buys a pair of socks. And whenever I buy stuff, my mind is trying to ease itself by reciting thoughts like “this thing is not going to protest, no matter how I treat it” and “I can always buy another pair if I make a mistake in buying this”. But n case of a marriage, none of these can be said. What drives the marrying people forward, when they know there is no turning back?

May be we can drop those who had a love-marriage, as they know each other enough. But what about the majority who is forced to get their marriage arranged by someone else? What if they put it on a secondary place what I value most? What if their definitions of beauty do not match with mine? What if they do not think that I may deserve someone better? And this list can go on and on.

The bottom line is : Getting married, if I get married ever, will be the most courageous thing I have ever done!

Are You Sure?

Have you ever had the feeling that the whole world is an illusion? That anytime, you may wake out of this ‘dream’ known as life and face a much better reality? Or everybody else, as they seem to have some abilities you do not posses, knows every damn thing about you; but they just don’t show it off because they want you to feel normal?

No, I’m not talking about human psychology here. I am just trying to check if I am as normal as you are. And I bet, at some point of time, you too had this urge. I remember reading somewhere that everyone, at least once, thinks of committing suicide. May be those who take these little mind games seriously are the creators of the films like ‘Matrix’ and ‘Inception’. And talking of these films, an idea just crossed my mind. A formula to give a hit and widely discussed movie is to take one of such little fantasies everyone has and give it some rules and regulations. You think this is a virtual world and the reality lies somewhere else? They threw in some rules for moving back and forth through these worlds, some rules to be obeyed in each world and came up with ‘Matrix’. You think there’s magic somewhere in the world? Yes, you got it. They regulated and standardized the use of magic and created ‘Harry Potter’. So, the next time any such little question bothers you, drop a letter to Warner Brothers Ltd and make big bucks!

Anyway, back to the topic. Sometimes, I wonder that how he (or she) can remember what I cannot? The logical part of my mind tells me the reasons. It tells me that every brain registers different things about the same event. It tells me that there must be a few things that you can remember, but he (or she) can’t. But somewhere in the back of my mind, doubt survives. Mathematical genius, musical sense and electronic circuitry expertise amazes me in the same manner. I think of those as aliens, who can solve Rubik’s cube. Thinking of this on macro level, you may have noticed that every Indian, by comparing to foreigners, tries to find out that is he living a normal average life or not. (Though, thanks to the population blast, the average value of everything in the world is shifting towards its value in India.)

So, the question is, “Do you feel the same way?”. You may have different specific questions. But I guess, if I am normal, the general feeling should be common in all of us.

P.S. – Asking such a question is useless, though. Because, if I am normal, the answer will be ‘yes’. And If I am what I sometimes fear, they you will answer ‘yes’ to make me feel normal! J

The New Year Resolution

You might be little surprised to see this post is not dated First of January. This post is not even the first one of this year. So, what’s the point?


From my (not so inspirational) experience of all the new year resolutions I ever thought of at the beginning of every year could not last for more than a week. This year, I was determined not to make one. At least, not in the over-enthusiasm of January, the First.


As I thought on the problem, I realized that rapid draining of driving force was the culprit. Solution? Why not to make the resolution when half of the first month (and all the temporary flash of “New Year Enthusiasm”) is gone? May be, even this trick won’t work on my mighty laziness. But new year resolutions are all about trying something new in the new year, aren’t they?


Secondly, I never expected too much from myself. So, I was very generous excusing myself for every request. Let me try the other way now. Why not to put you on the brink?


So, here I am, trying not to get loud mouthed. The only resolution I have for social life is to stay connected with old friends. Through every mean at my stake (which includes, I think, this blog too). Regardless of what I thought of them earlier. No matter if I have to take some time off my very busy schedule[;)].


You gotta fight the Dunbar’s number whenever you know it’s affecting your social contacts!

Why? Oh why?

Life begins and ends with “why”. Life starts from a why and runs for a why. It pauses for a why and resumes for a why. Works for a why and waits for a why.

They say life is a gift for those who dare to start with a “why” and also for those who dare to start with a “why not”. Why is the reason behind every deed, every act, every happening, every good-bad luck. Why is the reason behind the growth of a child. Why is the driving force of a wise man. Why is the reason behind the respect an old fellow gets.

“Why” is the reason behind the creation of all the worthy things. It created science, it created philosophy, it created astrology, it created astronomy, it created economics, it created nations, it created wars, it created nations, it created common sense. And the most important creation : it created God!

“Why” is a very important, but often ignored element of every aspect of our lives. When we forget to ask “why”, we are left with senseless traditions and corrupt system, weak concepts and endless slavery, extremist views and Bollywood films.

As they say, ‘Behind every successful man, there is a woman’. Because she keeps asking her man, “Why? Why did / didn’t / couldn’t / do / don’t / would / wouldn’t /should / shouldn’t /have / haven’t you?”